The World Falling In Transition

Against Me, the World Falling

Everywhere. In transition,   I am transition. I am Transforming.

My emotions are fluid, and move from one to the next, like water around rocks.  Tumbling and bubbling. Smooth and splashing.

I can feel like everyone is against me, no one cares at all, or everything animate and inanimate truly has it out for me.

These feelings, must sound irrational to the majority maybe, but for me they are survival tactics on autopilot.  Hard wired in my brain.  A brain molded at a very early age by the hands of abuse.   Tied to their own terrible twisted way.  They most likely had been abused and left in  in their own dark depths of pain. In the damp sweaty shame.

In my head, somewhere so deep that I barely perceive of it, and even then, only a little too late, hides my unconscious layers I can only glimpse and have yet to fully meet.  That self, myself,  that stays ever constant and busy with the acts of survival.  Resisting, hiding crouched low, like a castaway aboard my human ship hides my child.  Never again to be hurt so completely.  Betrayed, absolute.

It is hard to put into words how I feel in my daily life. All I know is I feel.  Constantly, I feel.   Sometimes it is a good feeling. so good it can only be described with words such as joy, bliss, amazement.  Other times, it is so bad, the words used are agony, despair, desolation, distraught, depravity.

Transition - female on tracks

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All I know, is that my moods flash like sunlight thru leaves.   Bright then shaded, smooth then broken.  From one to another in constant movement an emotional dance.   One minute, tears of amazement pour forth from my over filled heart! Moments later, the same tears turn to a rushing torrent pouring from a bottomless empty space that nothing has ever or will ever fill.

My emotions are fluid, and move from one to the next like water around rocks.  Tumbling and bubbling. Smooth and splashing.  Everywhere. In transition,   I am transition.

I am Transformation.  I am Transforming.

 

 

Ability of Skill

Ability Skill and Knowledge.

A skill is the ability to use one’s knowledge

effectively and readily in the execution or
performance of a task.
A skill is something you learn how
to do that can help you to have a
happier, safer and healthier life.
Our goal is to learn skills that will
allow you to help yourself and
make the most out of who you
are.

Learning Skills

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It is your job to USE a skill once you
have learned it.
Every skill you learn is something you can
take with you and have forever, like a
treasure that no one can take away.
But keep in mind that learning new skills is
hard work. It helps to practice the skills as
much as you can between groups .

Something you do for someone else as a
way of repairing the relationship if it has
been damaged in some way.

The relationship we have with each other is central, and should be based on
trust, respect, and cooperative work on
common and individual goals.

If anyone should break any of the agreed
upon rules and or agreements (because
sometimes people do make mistakes)
then a Repair will be expected.

Repairs can come in a variety of different forms
– you are encouraged to be
creative should you need to make a repair.

The reasons we do repairs are
Human relationships are very important.

It is important that when you have hurt
someone, you make an effort to make it up to
that person or people that you have hurt.

No one is perfect, and everyone deserves a
chance to make up for a mistake.

It reminds us to respect and value each other.
It feels good to do something nice for someone else

Goals of Skills Training

1. Confusion about self, cognitive dysregulation
2. Interpersonal chaos Fears of Abandonment
3. Dysregulated emotions, moods, Excessive Anger, Excessive Sadness
4. Impulsiveness, Suicide Threats

Behaviors to Increase
1. Core mindfulness skills
2. Interpersonal effectiveness skills
3. Emotion regulation skills
4. Distress tolerance skills

Limerick Dating Do’s

Do Limericks turn into Love?
​I wrote this ditty of a limerick for a funny review to leave on someone I was/am talking to on  a dating website.  Yes folks, I am attempting to date, working to my goal of a functional relationship. Go Me!
So far, dates -1. Stand ups-2  Connections – 0
Wrote this for a man I have been talking to, who is smart, funny, and well….I wrote this for him for fun…

Phd Tall as a Tree

Well well what can I say
when he’s on he’s on..and ready to play,

With who? With what? Did you ask where?

girl fish or mermaid

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Ouch oh yeah,Oh yeah he does,
he likes to pull on hair

Line up ladies, I’ll show you how
brains and seduction work
First you hold my feather duster,
and I will polish all the wood.

Up and down, round and round
is how I get to working
Oh my my is that a leg.
it’s definitely not a gherkin

My mind is wired a little faulty,
Yes it’s a little twisted
Such a muddy pond of players games
yet we all just keep on fishing

I may call dibs, and stake my claim
He’s different than his brothers
the rest of you splish splash away
Ty cat fishing with the others

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So many words, and sarcastic banter,
Lets not forget the laughter
you can look it up, if you don’t believe me
if you feel you really have to,
It’s in this thing that’s quite profound,
he calls his dictionary
collegiate thick and quite big around
close your eyes if it scares you
So many words you can’t fit in
His pen stroke goes on forever
He makes a  basket of sentences
To carry you off like a bandit
So listen ladies

cartoon man with a book

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I’m here to say,
He’s really not so scary…
On the Plateau of the Cumberland
Painting walls with dirty words
He’s Ripe, He’s randy and he’s ready
for the taking.

My Life Path Number 3

Number 3 IS Me, Life Path Number

LIFE PATH = BIORHYTHM + GENERATION NUMBER : 6+6=12=3

red dice

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This number is the sum of the biorhythm and generation numbers. It presents how much is a person
compatible with the generation demands. The life path number, like the biorhythm number, is also
influenced by the circumstances in which a person lives, and many numerologists refer to it as the
destiny number.
 INDEPENDENT NUMBER 3

This is the symbol of the planet Jupiter, the fifth planet from the Sun with many satellites and one of the brightest objects in the night sky, which also plays a very important role in astrology and numerology.
Number three is contained within all the numbers from three to nine. There is a specific relationship between the numbers 3, 6, 9 and the other numbers in the series. All the people with this life path number have a lot of understanding for each other.

These people rely on their instinct and heart to guide them through life and not so much on their reason. They like to try everything on the way their life is full of scars. They are gentle, emotional and very helpful. They especially like to help young people. Their life is often dedicated to a quest or exploration.

They enjoy love and are able to express their emotions. However, this love is not often returned to them that may bring them many disappointments in life.

This number involves dynamics and optimism, the meaning of life. These people are independent, courageous, active, and famous. They can start from nothing and become very popular or be engaged
in many things and accomplish a little. They like to achieve fame and to be remembered even after their death. They start their career as very young and put a lot of pain and effort into it. They like to be
independent in what they do.terion

They often need a university degree that can help them to achieve their aims. They may work in the fields of science. They are often scientists, philosophers or priests. They often speculate and analyze
things, use their logic and perception to understand life. They are very communicative. They may become good advisers, teachers, writers or orators. They believe in justice and truth and are ready to
listen to the opinions and beliefs of others.

They like to be successful in what they do. They do not like to rest and they often do more jobs at the same time. This is why they can earn a lot of money. They like to take advice from the people they
respect. They are loyal marriage partners, parents and friends.

 

IMPORTANT:

These people are physically strong, healthy and persistent. They should judge people carefully. They are prone to spend their money easily. They have to learn to be more economical and save their
money for the future that may be insecure, for the well-being of their family. They must avoid stressful situations and wrong people because they can easily fall under a bad influence.

These people should work on their plans and life aims on those days in a month that include their
number, such as the 3rd, 12th, 21st and 30th in a month. Their lucky days are Thursday, Tuesday and
Friday. Their favourite colours are yellow, violet, purple, blue and rose.

THE QUALITIES OF THE NUMEROLOGICAL THREE ACCORDING TO THE NATURE OF BIORHYTHM
AND GENERATION NUMBER

6 + 6 = 12 = 3 – These people are charming and are led through life by their emotions. They believe.